a little more than you wanted to see, but a lot of what you want to hear

Technically, I shouldn't be writing this post for at least another month or two. But I can't resist. We've finally done it. I've finally made it to that stage in life that I thought was not meant for me. I'm joining a world that was so untouchable for the longest time. Now that I'm here I don't really believe it. It's surreal. Mind boggling. But those 3 pee sticks have pretty much confirmed it.

This first one was a little inconclusive. There are suppose to be two lines, but the second line was really faint. However, the bright line was in the wrong spot to be a negative. I better take another one.

Enter dollar store test a few hours later. Yep. two strong pink lines. But, hey, this is from the dollar store. We best make sure this is legitimate.

The infamous E.P.T. I was supposed to be taking this one when I woke up Friday morning (which technically I did, I guess) but I woke up at 4:00 in the morning needing to go so I took it then. I didn't want to waste precious hormone-filled urine.

So here we are. After 20 months of trying. I have jumped for joy. Prayed in gratitude. Smiled unceasingly at Ronnie. Held my belly in awe and unbelief. I haven't even seen a doctor yet to really confirm everything. But you few followers of mine can handle this. I always thought it odd when people hid pregnancy. Yes, I know I could still easily lose this baby early on. And that would be sad and a little hard to talk about. But I would rather you all know and have your support no matter what than leave you in the dark. And I can't help thinking that even if something were to happen, I would still be grateful to have given that little spirit a body.

Now I'm hitting the baby books and trying to find a doctor and thinking about names and due dates (I think I will be due somewhere around the end of April)

Crazy stuff people. And to think that just a few days ago I had finally (and happily) excepted the fact that Heavenly Father had a little something different in mind for me right now. I guess that's what it took to get here.

bun in the oven